15 pounds down… now I can start to lose weight again!
Just thought I would check in with everyone.
Well it took two plus months to put on 12 pounds and here in week two of January I stepped on the scale today and I am down 15 pounds, now I can start losing non-holiday weight. I can’t help but think that if only I had maintained during the holidays where I would be on the scale, but then again, I know I will be there in a few weeks so I guess I shouldn’t punish myself! I should celebrate my unwavering resolve in the last 12 days.
Funny, though, how those shaming thoughts come in to play when I am doing so well and then I have to make myself feel bad for not seeing a different number on the scale. The “if only” complex has got to go. I have to keep refocusing on the end game. This is not something I will ever be able to just let go. I will always have to keep an eye on my weight. If the holidays taught me anything it’s that I can take a break from the healthy eating, but I will gain weight… because that is how it works.
I’m am trying to reel in the negative thoughts that accompany the process of weight loss and turn those thoughts and feelings into positivity and motivation. Every time I have a negative thought I stop myself and say, “And?”… it makes me reevaluate my thought and take the time to turn it around. For instance…Thought:”This is going to take me forever!”… pause “And?”… redirect:”And that is okay. The longer I sustain this lifestyle the longer I will sustain weight loss and weight maintenance.”… follow-up: ” I am doing great! Bombdiggity if I must say so myself!”…. Something like that. It is strange some of the coping mechanisms I come up with while obtaining this goal.
Speaking of weird coping mechanisms… I have to apologize to all of my Pinterest friends. I am so sorry for the incessant baked goods and food pins. At night I have been perusing Pinterest and the web for yummy things to make for Valentine’s Day and for dinner… it may seem totally irrational to go onto Pinterest every night and pin food when I am juicing, but somehow it gives me a good feeling. So for another 19 days you should expect the food and chocolate inundation to continue!
To all of you who are working hard towards a goal this January, keep up the good work. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else. Keep it real. Keep it positive and full of love!